thinking of you.
i am so intensely sorry for what you're going through.
i've been there...unfortunately (or am there...don't know).
you'll be messed up for a long time (sometimes i think it might be forever before i get back to "normal"...whatever that is)....but, know that people love you and want to do whatever they can to help (including me).
call/email whenever you need anything.
i am here.
just remember that mom's are love - and, love never dies.